Pain :|

Whatever you said over the phone is gonna scar a lifetime .
`This isn't a love song ,this is goodbye .
& i thought you were different ,i told everybody you were different .

Hi ?

Hie ,it's been long since i had my last post .
Well ,school has begun .
It's already a week in .
Thank god i found my tuition,5subs .Life is so so hard right now .
I'm struggling FYI .Sunday school has already begun today .
Having that thought again .
But i had a happy dream not long ago instead of those nightmares that really worries me to death. I get up so tired like as if i ran a marathon .

School's okay atm .
I'm dropping accounts .So good ,i have free periods now .
To either do work or SLEEP .


And you told me you don't hold grudges.
It feels like there's another guy now ,that's why you're avoiding me .
Like in those dreams .
that's what i think but my heart says don't be ridiculous .

<3

Enjoy Singapore (:
Jagaaa .
See you after Christmas

Temporary words

With temporary meaning.

Decent conversation is key.

It was a good day i would say ,well better than previously .


Recently we did our Christmas tree .




Today the tiles were done ,house was cleaned .
Now left the painting. Ate fast food for lunch and dinner ,so satisfying ..I would stuff my face
everytime when fast food is served. WAHAHA
Anyways,The house would be awesomely clean just before Christmas .
Back in my old place We would flood the house and scrub .Well that was the fun part .
Now up in here we do decent cleaning .lol i know.So yeaaaa Christmas is coming ,i can't believe it .Mama is still not recovering ,haih .What to want for Christmas ,Hmmm.
I was feeling the very same about last year's Christmas and hey look what came in next morning
Christmas 09 woah ,friggin fast .Well yeaa ,the time is ending so what now ? Do i break it and continue the Amazing Race ?
Or just ..

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`Get well soon Uncle Caleb.

What was happy then, isn't now .

I watch time fly by ,
as i wonder what was wrong with me ,
I only managed to solve my language problem .


That isn't going to fixed if you keep pissin me off .

Convos don't feel the same no more ,you show attitude ,i show attitude &
you spam your byes .Pretty useless ,bye so you can avoid a fight ?
I prefere to fight it all out and get it over with or at least talk it out .

I can't believe the year is ending ,as SPM is next year.
Christmas is coming soon & it doesn't even feel like it .
I use to count the days to Christmas anxiously .
I use to be all hype up .
Now i'm all down and out ,not even ready for Christmas .
I feel retarded ,it's the day Jesus was born and this is how i repay him .
I think i'm going to Hell and yea i don't blame noone .
Christmas use to be an awesome family together .We would go to church on the eve and
come home at 12 + and stay up till 4am .The hse would be quite noisyy and yea,we were all
so hyped.Now it feels like ..nothing ?God ,i'm sorry.

Screwed up .
Scars to prove the past is real.

If it's goodbye, i will never believe in love again.

`Points blank right through the heart.

I've lost it , lost you & lost myself .
Losing everything you might live for .

My as well just pull the trigger ,too late to see the value of my life .