Thoughts .

Thousand of `em runs through my mind .Most of the time ,worrying.
Thinking whether ;Getting angry was the right thing ,
swearing was the right thing,
losing control was the right thing .etc.


Its all playing back in my mind like a broken handy camera .
Rethinking every damn thing, back and forth .

Was i hush? Was is it her fault?It didn't matter then..



This was my idea .

Then i realize ,the only accurate way was to ...
let her leave.
And from there ,we'll see ,whether she still cared.Whether her heart longs for me.


Well nothing seems to change .It looked like the only way.

Your ways are still the same.
No effort and expecting the best from me .


This all happened ,uninvitingly .
Started with a not so beautiful day ..

Ended tragically.
And worse there's school tomorrow.



Here's the story ,would you have gotten angry over this ?


Waited from morning till the evening ,over 9 hours.
waiting & waiting .Couldn't even text during school hours cause she said ''i'm in school not suppose to even text ''so she asked me to wait till,she finish school.Whatever happened in class i didn't know.
First thing, the exucuse was damn lame.Considering she would have text .Previously she did as well .First time hearing it .Obviously me?got angry.Recess she didn't even text a single msg.Get ma point ?

there's more.
Then after school she had like interact ,which would start around.1.45 .
And yesh she didn't text .
all she said after school was ''done ttyl'' .Yea awesome,i know.
interact started she text ''interacting tatas''

then she had netball and yesh ..had to wait a lil longer.After she had finished.
i couldn't remember the exact words ,but there was ''tatas'' in it .
Didn't make much difference.Haih so how do u feel now ?
Syoik ?haha yea right.Whatever your feeling now ,doesn't get any better.but worse.

Then she got homee ,we text like a couple of msgs .She bathed .
and then she asked me .
''Can i sleep or do u wana talk''(not the exact words but u get ma point)
Then i blew .

Got furious.
She also said talk when i'm at home.Forgotten to add this.And still asked.
I found the question she asked was rather ; pissing off.

An awesome tragedy later on occured .

My spare phone was down and out as you can see why.My sony is down and out too!
The sony was the screen but this ,was the body .Bare hands.
Anger management issues!maybe ?xD



Moment of silence.