Ungrateful piece of shit.

All i ever got was SHIT from you .
Went aussy had a nice time ,came back things u DID .
Only a friggin retard would do ..
Ruin my blady holiday .

NOW BEST RUIN MY DAY !
Stupid retardo day .

I wish i got hit by a car and ended up in a coma .
I don't wana be dead yet .

Just to see if u cared shit la.


Go your form 5 kaki .
They all got your back yo !

Nigga my ass.

Struggles .

Nothing seem to stand anymore ;
The people you needed , just aint there .
The one you cared most ,doesn't bother anymore.

I should just listen to my parents,by the looks right now .
Like a girl would be there always right?Do you even bother what's running in my mind?
Prolly sooner or later you'd be on your own .
I should just start to let you go or so ..
Can't take this shit no more .

Now playing: I Surrender


Since i don't talk to you nice enough for now ,time takes over .
You're the angel right ?
Who gave me every damn thing ?
Kononnya.
From the start ,the very beginning .
I should have just hid this feelings.

The phone i wanted ,i really now don't care shit about it .
The phone i'm currently using is jack-ed up .
Moreover ,exam is just tomorrow .
Stress will be added up ..

I can live with what i have .
Wantings are not needed ,doesn't satisfy me for the moment .

Deciding.

As i was surveying many phoness excluding nokia's !HAHA .only sony ericsson's as the nokia5310
express music was a big failure to me .Arggh ,i really wanted that but oh wtvs right now .
I discussed with baby(: about phones and all .That cheeky thing kept gaving me phones that
are not even out yet YET cool looking !Rather nicee i would say ,designss were epic.Really nice.
BUT UNFORTUNATELY I'M SURE IT WOULD COST A BOMB ADDITIONAL TO THE TIME DELAYING
to get a new phone.Hahaa .. The only type of sony ericsson's i would get, is the walkman phone ,as their
speaker phoness .And i like my music. Speaker over camera ,anyday.

These were the phoness models that was on me and baby's(: mind
W715 ,w760 ,w395 and a few others which i eliminated..
Baby says the 715 is nice and all ,i say it would cost alot as i'm trying to get the phone soon
not months later or so . I did like the 715 but then again yea..




I'm currently favouring the w760 over the rest ,as for alot of purposes .
The price is reasonable based on features.

Cravings .

I'm currently craving for thiss friggin phone,it's so friggin nicee .Babi i want it ..Trying to get this phone for about 6?The market pricing is about 750 more or less .God help me !
Yea ,and moreeover ,i have not much cash ! Awesome..
Oh yesh and my license and motorbike .Arggh i want at least a 100cc bike ..

My savings does not really last nowadays :\


Oh help me lord for my wants ;)

Day later.
as i wanted that phonee ,the urge to get it drifted due to researches .I can't deny the outside
looks friggin delicous and all ,but the inside wasn't so.When i first saw the functions ,it was all impressive.The camera isn't that good and the so called ''speaker phone''Which isn't that loud and clear .I guess i should get a sony then .I think the speaker of a walkman phone
can beat this .
arggh !Dilemmas ,i don't want to put my money to waste as i did already two phones.
That was pure bullshit !

AND AND AND !

You'll be having an affair with me :D
Oh i so pity your boyfriend ;D
Who ,i will prolly bruise later on.

And and in the end ; i get baby back ;)
<3

To baby ;)

OH baby ;)
If u ever have another ;
You know i'll still kiss you(:

if the reason it ended was reasonable.

Unpleasant suprise .

23rd April 2009 ;0

Okay ,now guess what's SO special about that date right there?
Okay i'll go to the main point ; you suck.
It's my birthday .Alright,this day was quite special ,
comparing last year.
It was only special because baby(:
came over to spend the day with me .
Which meant everything ,
considering my family wasn't gona celebrate on that day.
They pushed to the weekend which till now didn't celebrate ,
i'll tell u why later on.
So yeshh if she didn't come over ,the day would be awfully sad.
And yesh it would have been as bad
as ze last year because everyone of my siblings
had went out family-E or had dinner but me .
I still can't believe it though.Nvm,I'm so wtv over that
.And that day my grandfather was already admited in hospital
due to failure with the heart,which i'm guessing was a day ago.
It stopped for 20mins or less ,
i'm not quite sure.
After baby left ,not long after i headed on to the hospital .

Thank you lots baby (; <3>

'Unpleasant suprise.

Friday was as equally normal as ze rest
,excluding that papa was still in the hospital
Came back from school knowing i was gonna head on to the hospital.
So yeshh ,got home ;got ready .
Waited awhile and took off there.
Arrived around 4?
Waited and waited .Talked ,ipod,texted & bought food.
Went to the church next door ,which was assunta .
Prayed for papa and so on.
Fought with my princess and a super wrong time.
My mood was so gay-ed on that day.


After church i entered back, papa was admitted in ccu.
So i waited outside with family members.
The anxious thoughts flow deep ;especially in mama.
All of a sudden ,papa was chocked off his saliva .ithink.
So he stopped breathing .
Doctor went back in. Came out 5mins later with success .
Not long after ,while our relieve who we taught was RELIEVED,
came to an end with a second atttack ,
causing the heart to stop pumping.
Doctor came out ,to inform .


He said yall should see this .
Before i could say oh ,emotions ran deep .
Right down under.
In everyone of a us .Or yet; most.There wasn't a pulse nor heartbeat.


24th April 09.departed.

To dear papa ,
Since your already up above ,negotiate a place for me with god.

`Gold medal for papa` , for all his done for us .
the saying he always used.