No privacy.

I feel like closing this damn shit blog .
Or at least abandoning it.

Put mind at rest.

GOODNIGHTS.




X sleep tight would ya.Sleep early

Do i break walls or hand.

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
If you feel you’ve lost your way

What if your chances are already gone?
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away .

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for.


Call me out you stayed inside
One you love is where you hide
Shot me down as i flew by
Crash and burn i think sometimes
You forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go ,learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening
Now,can't you see somethings missing
You forget where the heart is.

Sittin’ all alone in your room
Thinkin’ that the world’s let you down
All you ever wanted to do is trust someone to always be around
You’ve had a lot of lessons to learn from
Some of them hit you so hard
And I keep believing someday you’ll see, you don’t have to be alone


Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan
karena cinta yang tlah hilang darimu yang mampu menyanjungku
Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak selama
itu pun aku mampu tuk mengenangmu




`The heart sees what is blind to the eye.

Time to let go.

If you say i'm finding happiness from a girl ?just because i talk to em .
Then what the hell were u doing months ago ?and now in school.
Going for zack's party when i was in aussy .
Getting into another guy's car ?
Yea you're clearly the god damn angel .Really..
I can state a hundred fold of your wrongs but for what?
What do i get outt of it .

Posting my convo ?what u trying to prove .
Paste the whole damn thing .Seriously.
Then see who was wrong.
Cut here cut there ..
I want my privacy ,if not don't talk to me ever.
tas.
Take that convo off.

FFS

Please roze shut up if you don't know anything please .
Obviously you hear her friggin complains everytime i do something wrong .
Do you even know her wrongs?
You don't even know la okay?
How long have you known inkkie ?
Tell mee .
If you do ,you should know her .
So don't worthless comments ..

Yeaa ,it's a stupid feeling to feel .
Even i'm getting that stupid feeling.

The biggest risk.

She's the best damn thing ,and i meant it with every breathe i took. My only best friend became my girlfriend because i followed my emotions, risking our awesome friendship and noww it's just
friends.Was it even smart to risk a friendship that good?


Before she came baby .
The short msg's before we even had our first face2face convo ,was breathe taking .
An awesome person to talk to ,brightens the whole day and changes my mood quick.
No doubt everytime she sms-ed i made myself free ;doing nothing except hanging
by the handphone ..waiting.Texting till whenever ,it didn't matter .
The shortest of convo did brighten my day or change my mood.
When it got late after a long chit chat with her ,after our goodbye's /goodnights and all .
There would always be a huge smile before falling asleep.
How happy i became ,i'm telling you it made a difference.A BIG one.
Didn't really thought that me and her would had even end up together because everytime
there was a new guy .To even to have like her then would have just broken me down from time
to time.And if i did ,men will i suffer bad.To see my good friend ditch me for her ,did make me jealous. Ah just somethings i had to get over .To hear sue anne's NOISE going ''inkkie likes you'' ,did make me blush.And i thought it was exaggerated for her to like a guy not in her school.
To step into taman sea and see she was with another guy did intefere .
Making me think ,really differently.To get a warm welcome to taman sea ,didn't exist .
Like you didn't know me.Not a smile but a serious face everytime we passed.

I guess the number 13th really isn't a good number after all.


Don't go ,cause i won't feel right.
Stay because i need to know someone actually gives a damn.
Who would i tell when i reach home?
As if anyone bothered .
Because i trusted you when noone had that chance.
Was this risk a stupid one ?I really hope not.


And i'm sorry.

I know you have a millions of boys ;just waiting .
I have noone waiting not literally but because i'm really fussy (:
if that's a crime fine me.

Past.

Diary of Leeinkkie .

It started slowly ; step by step ,piece by piece we came closer .Each year ,each msg & each outings. That brought us closer . That first kiss was the very first glimpse of heaven.


At first ,when we started off .
It didn't seem like i was your boyfriend ,honestly .It felt ..
Yea i was like useless ,powerlesss .Scared to even let out a word .
Guys kept coming ,i acted blind .
Ignoring .Just reminding myself she loves me not em .
Didn't seem like that right now .Seem like i was played.
I wouldn't say the you're the same as u were back then.
You evolved ,obviously.
Your much different compared to back then.
Maybe i think so ,because i'm in a different school ?
Thats why i don't see .
I can't see it .Won't know whats happening back there..
But it seem right now all turn the opposite .
Instead i see myself doing the wrongsss .Making the mistakes ?Not changing my language towards
her? Ahh she hasn't fully change for the best ,still dong the same old stupid moronic mistakes.
But i'm hoping that she will change for good and not for me ..
In the mean while i've to be doing the same ..
Perfecting the unproper moves.

I guess we have to take a break <3 So longg.. till thens.

Pain.

Breaks you down.
Right deep down ,inside.
Thanks,
I'm getting lost. At least going away from u.tatas

Ice Skating.

Ahhh !something i've missing long time .
I should ice skate more often .


Today morning woke up at around 9.30 .
My kan chiong mother la !
Always make us do stuff super early and all .It's like exaggerated.OVER DONE LA.
Ended up daddy came only after 1 .Babi !Damn kau long waited.
Ahh ,arrived at piramid .
Wendy's for lunch .Soo filling !uh .
Walked around since the friggin ice skating rink was LIKE FILLED WITH GAYS AND NERDS!
oh my nigga you should have seen the crowd .If u thought u saw the rink crowded ,today better
be the day .It was so packed.My dad said it was like independents day .(not sure if i spelled
that right )lmao.Anywayss .
Enter the ring around 4 + .Ah was a good timee .Wasn't as pack as the starting.
Ahh that smell when you're in the rink !AH !nice .hHAA
Ah oh yesh ,in the ring .
There was this fat malay kid ,WHO WAS SO CUTE OH MY NIGGA.
Seriously ,You look at him .U MIGHT FALL IN LOVE.I'M SO GAY RIGHT NOW.
I mean seriously cute !
Every girl would GO SO CUTE and some guys too HAHA.
I had to like skate with him .As in hold his hand /arm and skate .
Cause he coouldn't skate if there was 1million right in front of him .HE was so funny like really.
He would always ask me to go faster ,everytime i did .He ended up loosing balance and landing
straight onto the ground !ARghh. Ah his so fatt his face damn round .Eyes damn big .
Then every now and then i ditched him ,HAHA .Even with me holding him ,he can fall .
Ah !he was small .lmao.He had siblings /friends WHO DON'T GIVE SHIT MENZ.
Instead they rather see him fall and leave him be .AH evil ppl .
So at times me and ma brother will help him .
And when we ditched him ,he will beg !or when he see's us he goes BANG ABANG UHH !.
haha funny shit.OH MY SISTER FELL !THE ELDEST she so pro menz !
Fly upwards then drop on her ass ,ended up hurting her wrist. lmao. Ah i SAW.
Super pain.LMAO.I didn't really fall ,ithink.
Loosing ma footing was about it .Ahh so fun .
I got blisters .Thank god not that bad .So i continued skating..
Ah i'm planning to skate every month noww.

Out from sunway around 10ish .headed to the mamak outside for dinner .
Came back like 12 .Thats about it .

Oh yesh sounds like an all so wonderful day for me ?
Yea i thought so laa ,till ..
All these things are categorize as temporary happiness .hmmm .
So what's really happiness?
Try thinking.

This is stupid.

Ever heard anyone going ''i hate you'' or telling you that she hates that person but still goes on talking talking and talking ,laughing ,touching ,hanging out & etc with that person?
I get this friggin often from girls mostly .Guys who hate just act don't know ,aint that right?

Well girls do this thing DAMN often i would say.
Telling you that she hates that guy or girl yet you may see pictures taken .
Having their contact number bla blaa blaa .
It such crap don't you think so ?

I get annoyed ,especially when it's a lie ..
Just wonder why the fack they would say such CRAP.

Here's a tip ,
if you so friggin hate that someone ,how about you like STAY AWAY FROM EM.
Don't be a bitch and act like you're into em .

Whathefish.

Sudden feeling in me.
Suddenly feeling awkward or weird .
Feeling rather strange.
Haih wtheck ?!^#@$*
PMS ?!HAHA your mom la pms.

What a very boring day .
Today's the worst yet throughout the holidays..